In a LosT lOst WoRld !!

2010-01-03T20:50:00.002+08:00

2010
a brand new year
a brand new start

may happiness flow to my family, myself n my friends.
keep flowing keep flowing.
and never stop.
:)

mei going to P1 tml.
she told me that she is scared.
haha.
like even my maid says.
"i will be even more stresses, becos 2 person 2 coach"
and does it mean i will shout more?
haha lol i shall control.
cos not good for myself also =/

hoping for everything to turn fine, well and smooth.
HAPPINESS is all i want! =)

Cheers!

2009-12-31T11:54:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE 2009!

hope today will be my happiest day =)

2009-11-02T21:00:00.003+08:00

so much wanted to.
just wanna watch you play.
and be there supporting you de.
JIAYOU ba.

last time de you.wil asked me pei u everywhr u go de.
but i noe...ni dou shi wei le wo hao.

sometime i jus needed a break.

2009-10-18T18:19:00.002+08:00

bring 4 kids out for lunch @ mac.
then them proceed to arcade and me to NTUC to top up needed stuffs at hm.
in NTUC, alot things that i wanna buy but yet find it too ex so din buy. =(

came home trying to pack 1 of the kitchen cabinet.
then proceed to bath.

while bathing, sudden tot that there are actually too many things that i can do rather then being emo.
for instance.
pack my room.
do housework.
play games.
exercise.
bring siblings out.
teach them hw.
etc etc.

of cos sometime i may feel pissed or angry doing things like this.
but im sure that after seeing the result.
i wil smiles.
and it give me a sense of achievement

spent really really alot recently.
or can say all the times.
but no choice lar.

cos i need to help to support the family.
lols.

i just wan a happy and close family.
simple happiness is all i wan.

2009-09-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

i enjoyed my 22nd Birthday!!

Thanks to everyone!
esp my Precious jie. =)

i love ya.

i think i shld be clear of my priority now and work hard towards it.
Cheers.

PS: I want my 22nd photos! lols dun even have 1 with me. =/

2009-09-13T20:37:00.001+08:00

stay at home also so boring.
sighs

like is getting more n more meaninless.
life getting more and more boring.
need a change to it.
i wan a more enjoyable life.

enjoy while we still can.
before i cant even stay out at nite.
sighs.

2009-09-13T12:57:00.002+08:00

haha bring broke like so poor thing.
haha cos it make me dun feel like going anywhere but just play ball only.
haha.

feel like clubbing so much.
haha cos i wanna dance it all out and forget all worries.
i wanna enjoy.
haha but end uo din go also.

haha so fast and it sunday agn.
lol.
tml will be another wk agn lor.
so fast.
haha.

and it means synergy it getting nearer.
haha
im looking forwards though.
hope it will be a success.

i enjoyed myself last 2 days though it's jus pure slacking.
becos u r by my side. =)

i guess someone is gonna break her promise for my bdae.

2009-09-06T16:00:00.002+08:00

i enjoyed the bball sessions yest. =)
although most of the time were just playing with own ppls.
whahaha.
sweat so much.run so much.
shiok!!

i wanna have more of this sessions =)

sorry to make u sad again.
and so sad.
i need to wait another 5 days =(
i miss you.
jiayou =)

2009-09-06T15:46:00.002+08:00

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

you jus dunno how much i have been missing u everyday.
you just dunno how i feel.
dun wanna msg u becos i dun wanna get myself more hurt.
but i guess with or without getting my msges.
you dun give a damn at all.

the moment i read ur blog that day.
to find out that u still like her.
to find out that u r still so craz over her.
my heart jus feel so ache.

i guess.
thru all the time.
u r realli treating me like a fool
dun tell me that u wanna cherish everyone ard u.
becos i dun think so.

now i dun even noe u will get to see all this.
becos i dunno if u even bother to read my blog.
all along you said that im nt patience enough.
im nt putting in efforts.

then can u tell me wad u mean by "patience enough" and "putting in efforts"?
i shld leave long ago.
but i dunno whenever i see ur pic.
i read ur blog.
i jus feel like holding u.

just wanna tell u if you get to read this.
study hard for ur exams.
take gd care of urself.
rem to take ur 3 meals.
and dun smoke so much.

and i guess.
i will get a empty promise again.
or will u say.
in the 1st place.
u din even promise me.

2009-09-02T12:06:00.001+08:00

Im feeling fats.
Because I hasn’t been working out since last sat?
Sighs.

Actually workout day has decrease to like only 1 – 2 days only.
Due to fasting mth and that time clashes for bball session.

Now even 1 day also dun have sia.
Today suppose to go gym with colleague but yet end up cancel.
Lolls as usual. Expected it.

Then tml no gym cos they cant make it so im staying back for table tennis.
Sighs.
I wanna exercise more.
I wanna go gym more.
I wanna play bball more.

Cos I nv exercise.
I will feel emo. =((

Looking forwards to Friday so that I can see my precious jie.
The one that will treasures me so much.

To the other, I really don’t think you worth my care and concern.
Cos u r treating me like a fool.

2009-08-26T13:18:00.002+08:00

ur tone to me yest damn sux.
i almost cry after i hanged up.
treat u good, talk to u nicely though im sad, no mood, emo.
still get so many nasty reply or no reply.

told myself im gonna ignore.
im nt gonna care.
i dun wan to sms.
but i always cant control that finger of mine.
that will start typing.
and end up sending u a sms.

im just so useless.
at times when u make me realli piss.angry.
i still reply in a nice way.
i tried to change.
but nth help.
nth is being appreciated.

im always so soft hearted towards u.
i guess i need to learn to be cold blooded.
to not to care and all.

what you say in ur blog is true.
U have change.
change til i almost dunno who are you.
the one tat used to dote on me.
treat me so nice.
dun mind travel.
will sms, will call me the u has already died.

i noe things are different.
but till the extend of how u r treating me nw is like..
erm..dunno how to express it.

like wad i say.
i nv seems to be impt to u.

yes, maybe i am once impt to u.
from 17/7/05 - 11/09/05
that the only period.

everyday im hoping for the past u to come back.
but i guess.
it will never happen.

i still wanna say.
take care of urself.
jiayou in ur studies.

and sincerely wanna let you know that
"i miss you"

2009-08-24T13:53:00.002+08:00

after i read the reply.
i felt so sad.
so feel like crying.
ahough u din say anything.
but it jus make me think that im no longer impt to u anymore.
it's so heartbreaking.

wanna runaway to a far far place.
i realli care.do u know?

2009-08-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

everythings seem to be fine.
everything seems to get better.
but actually, alot of things are hidden beneath.

so stress up.
but yet there is nothing that i can do.
i jus wan a better life.
not only for myself.
but everyone.

u made me lose hope.
u made me walk away.
u dun give me any reason.
u just ignore.
if that wad u reall want.
i'll go along with u.

2009-08-22T22:50:00.002+08:00

out to Jurong Point yest night to meet jie for dinner.
and noe wad.
i was late for half an hr.
oops. sorry jie to keep u waiting wor =/

then to Nike to purchase ah bun present.
nice nice. =)
hope she will like it.

and then off to jie hse to slp.
we slept quite early.
cos think both tired ba.

then today was such a great day.
it start off by going to work.
haha nth much to do but time passes quite fast.
cos wad i do is to chat n chat n chat.
hahahaha =x

then off to amk to mit jie n ah bun for lunch.
had lunch at Sticky rice.
as usual i ate the same thing lor.
haha had some chat.
mostly abt taiwan.
and it make me realli wanting to go there more.
but most imptly.
nid save up 1st.
whahahhaa

then bun went hm after tat cos she need do proj ah.
so both of us went to Cathay to watch "THE PROPOSAL"
haha was a good choice to watch that.
the show was funny. i think super nice =))

head to MOS for dinner.
haha wanted to go ASHTON but quene super long.
so jiu dun wan eat le.
cos i dun like to wait jus to eat.
find it supid lar.
whahahha

walk walk awhile then jiu proceed hm.
although like we didn't do much today but it was totally great.
a great day out =))
WOOHOO!!

partly cos ah bun say something nice to me today??
hahaha.
got improvement.but still super long way to go.
at least it make me more motivated.
and dun give up =))
Thanks!!

To: The one who still yet to return me the lucks that i lend her

was kind of sad that u treated me so cold.
i dunno is it cos u got nth to tok to me or?
and if that's realli the reason.
why we become so like stranger?
i guess.
i will never make myself impt to u.
no matter how hard i try.

2009-08-19T17:01:00.000+08:00

i really think that i am doing not enough.

not determined enough. =(

2009-08-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

Im feeling damn depressed.
Tears wanna roll down anytime.
But I controlled.

Sometime when u think u r gd.
It doesn’t mean others think u r gd as well.
Sometime when a person think u r gd.
It also doesn’t mean the others agree with that person.
Sometime when u thinks that u had gave ur best.
To others it may be nothing.

It seems like more and more things are running through my mind.

Will it be another slpless nite?
I seriously dunno why cant I be happy.

Feel like leaving.

2009-08-11T13:49:00.002+08:00

my precious gonna be busy again.
cos it a new sem of school.

and it means means...
im gonna be more sianz agn. =(

wad worst is..
no more bball.
omg, 1 less day of workout! =((

i wanna club, sing, gym and play bball more!
all i want is play non stop without any worries =/

there are simply too many things that i wan.

2009-08-06T17:04:00.001+08:00

Whenever negative thoughts came into my mind abt us.
I will try to think of all these:

You sayang my head whenever Im sad.
You hugged me tight whenever I cried.
You kissed my forehead to make me go to slp when im crying.
You always put ur hand on my shoulder.
You used to always hold my little finger whenever we walked on the street.
You carry my shoebag for me on every Friday.
You gathered grps of friends to celebrate for me on my birthday.
You let me slp half of your bed whenever I stayed at your house.
You buy me small little gifts whenever im moody.
You msg me telling me that im your precious.
You run to the carpark n cry n lying to the rest that u saw ur friend.
I carry your bag for you always (past).
I travelled all the way to your sch often to just meet you.
I’m the one that you will always cried in front of.
I take care of you when u needed me.
I help you to bath when you need me too.
I washed your feet for you when u r bitten by the mosquito.
I wiped off the blood on your arm when u fall off the bicycle.
I always like to hug you from the back.
I kissed you on the bus when u want me to because u r down (though you cant rem but I do)
I always send you home although I have a shorter way home.
I cried easily cos of u because your little action affect me.
I always like to write to you. (dairy etc etc.)
I used to go to your workplace often to pei you.
… … … … … … … … … … … … … …

And the list go on n on n on and I hope it nv stop…

2009-08-06T12:10:00.001+08:00

Headache, body weak, wisdom tooth pain.
Sleepy, tired, restless

2009-08-05T17:00:00.001+08:00

Mixed feeling.
Have been feeling really moody for the past few mths.

Sometimes when I needed you badly. You are just not by my side.

2009-08-05T12:04:00.001+08:00

After more than 10 years of not seeing him.
I finally saw him yest at the wake.
Felt weird at 1st.
We din really talk.
Or can say never talk.
I just sat and kept quiet there.

But I can see that he or rather everyone there are damn happy to see us.
And if im not wrong I saw him almost tears when he saw us.

Kinda felt him poor thing.
Kinda miss him.
But there is nothing that I can do or I wanna do.
Because I dun wan to change anything.

When will we be able to meet again.
Will there be a next time.

I will put all the misses I had for him in my heart instead.
I suddenly felt so incomplete.

This day shall stay as memories and I will nv forget it.
040809

Wo shi xiang ni de.
Ni zhi dao ma.

2009-08-02T15:56:00.002+08:00

decided to go clubbing.
so i parted with jie early.
sorry wor.
so dun wanna part with her though.
but i scared im late.

went club at Butter Factory yest with a grp of random ppls.
whahahaha my long lost contact sec sch friend(except for kachu)
hahha it was fun to me but not to them.
cos i think they not high?
despite drinking so much.
and i was super high.
i dunno why.
maybe cos i cant stop dancing?
ahahhaa

left at ard 4am.
saw Darren Tan(superstar singer)

then cab home with jinyan.
came home headach, wan vomit.
so head to bed straight.

and im still super tired nw!
haha feel like napping but scared tonite cant slp agn.
hahahha shall see hw later.

To my precious,
wo hao xiang ni wor.
i feel like and wanna spend more time with u.
but u r always so busy and i noe u wanna stay hm more.
forever and ever and we will never be parted kz.

2009-07-31T13:43:00.000+08:00

HuaiXiaoHai had died long ago.
isn't it?

2009-07-28T17:15:00.001+08:00

I’m so sooo in love with the below song.
“ke bu ke yi ai wo”

Cant stop listening to it.
Im addicted.

If things will to be better.

I wish.

Not in really good mood today.
So feel like going for a drink.
Feel like making myself drunk.
Club esp.
Cos I cant dance it all out.

2009-07-26T13:50:00.002+08:00

just came back not long from gym.
woke upp at 9+ just to go.
cant slp anyway.
slpless nite for sort of like wks alr?
mentatlly and physical tired but mind just cant stop running.
i think maybe i wil just collape 1 day.
and no1 will noe abt it.

i just love fri and sat.
becos i can see u.
u r busy.busy and real busy.
till i think we will lose each other soon.
and i guess i will be all alone for the rest of my life.

awating for 5 more days.
gonna take a nap soon.

可不可以爱我

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你你

可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落你

可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄

成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪
过你能给我快乐还是寂寞

如果我變成回憶

累了照慣例努力清醒著也照慣例想妳
好怕一放心睡了心跳在夢中不聽話的就停止了
聽著呼吸像浪潮拍動著越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼如果我連自己的脈搏都難掌握

如果我變成回憶退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣我冰冷身體擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己如此狠心

如果我變成回憶終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮蹣跚牽著妳看晚霞落盡
漫長時光總有一天妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以讓他陪妳我不怪妳

快樂什麼時候會結束呢哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳緊緊抱著可知妳是我生命中的最捨不得

如果我變成回憶退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣我冰冷身體擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己如此狠心

如果我變成回憶終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮蹣跚牽著妳看晚霞落盡Mei
漫長時光總有一天妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以讓他陪妳我不怪妳

如果我變成回憶最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣霸佔妳心裡每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平請妳盡力把我忘記

愛你勝過自己

不會再後退也不能再挽回
我們之間的一切讓我的心殘廢
要多少智慧才能夠無所謂
倒不如給幸福多一次機會

我不想難過你選擇了沉默
我們笑把感傷輕輕帶過
如果能夠重新來過我們有沒有把握
只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒

原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
留下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己

不會再後退也不能再挽回
我們之間的一切讓我的心殘廢
要多少智慧才能夠無所謂
倒不如給幸福多一次機會

我不想難過你選擇了沉默
我們笑把感傷輕輕帶過
如果能夠重新來過
我們有沒有把握

只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒

原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
留下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己

只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒
原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己

2009-07-23T12:18:00.002+08:00

yeah tml is friday again!!
i can see my precious.
misses her soooooooo much. *shy*

physically and mentally tired.

swimmin cancel later cos colleague 1 MC, the other 1 fasting.
wanted to ask diana to pei me de.
but but..
think i better go hm rest.

2009-07-19T13:11:00.001+08:00

this is what i have done on my wall.

just wanna put all the good memories up.

2009-07-19T13:03:00.002+08:00

boring day.
always plan my day to be empty on sun.
so that i can pei my mama at home.
but then..
turn out to be.
she always PS me!

just like today.
i woke up at 10+
then she already woke up alr.
telling me that she is going in Malaysia.
lols.
i heard liao.
sianz.

since then im free.
msg 1 or 2.
but always din reply din reply.
sighs.
suan liao.
alone at home cos siblings went arcade.
lols..

maybe i shall go slp agn soon.
hate to be at home alone.

was feeling real emo on fri.
i teared.i cried.
seriously.i dunno wad gone into me agn.
nvm.
cos that me.
last time, now and even in the future.

2009-07-17T13:07:00.003+08:00

i lied on bed at ard 1025pm yest.
but only fall aslp at ard 2am.
having slpless nite almost everyday.
sighs.

sometime im thinking.
can i be the one to be hurt instead of her?
i rather cry instead of seein her cry.
cos it make mi more painful to see her cry.
i rather be the one to be unhappy instead of her.
cos once she is no mood=me no mood.
i rather be the one to worry for eveything instead of her.
so that she wun be so pek chek and easily frastrated.
i rather rather.
i rather take all the pain from her.
cos she is happy mean i will be happy.
wo tong ku wo wu shou wei.

fight hard.
cos life still goes on no matter how hard it is.

last day working home.
back to office on Monday.
gd life got to end somehow.
=x

and it also mean.
im gonna see her less again. =(

2009-07-16T13:26:00.002+08:00

i need motivation & determination.
and of cos confidence to believe in myself.
if nt im sure gonna get no where.

i dream of HuaiXiaoHuai yest.
i guess its those songs that i have heard that remind me of her too much.
went to watched her match.
but she seems to ignore me.
we are so near yet so far.
feel so distance.
ppls says that dream is different from reality.
but i guess this time round is nt true.
becos.
i felt that we are realli distance.

fellt so funnny.
we know each other for like 4 yrs?
and we nv celebrate each other bdae b4.
why cant we be just like what we are before?

2009-07-15T13:18:00.001+08:00

it's gonna be tough.
really tough.

i believe, it takes years to heal and overcome.
trying to fight hard.
will i be able to do it?

stay by my side and never go away.

2009-07-14T13:41:00.001+08:00

im missing you.
but yet i dun dare to contact you.
becos i scared tat you are busy.
sighs.
i guess every wk im looking for is fri.
becos that the day that i can see you.

do u think of me when u r busy too?
i hope im nt out of ur mind so easily.
take gd care.

2009-07-12T14:23:00.002+08:00

just now woke up at 12+ pm.
whahahah gd slp man.
lols.

then sent my 2 pants for alteration.
whahahhaha it costs me 20 bucks you noe.
lols but nvm.
as long as it can make mi look nicer.
jiu worth it le.
hopefully is nt too tight ah.
lols.

i guess im going sunplaza with my mama later.
woohoo =))
wanna spend more time with her.
hehe =)

then later wil continue to watch my "handsome suit"
nice show =)

bride wars is another nice show.
it link back to me and u =)

2009-07-12T14:11:00.003+08:00

injured my finger while playing bball on fri.
sighs.
i hate it cos it's is painful.

yest went to bishan to collect my phone.
lol.
hopefully it's ok alr lar.
cos the next timei wil to go.
wil be charable alr!!
lols.

bought a few things yest.
so got man zhu kan.
lols.
bought purple topman basic tees, camera bag and 3 pairs of earring.
lol.
hahaaahha

me and the precious 1 had our dinner quite late yest.
and we walk like non stop.
and was like so tiring man.
cos she wore heels.
haha make me look so short.
idiot de lor.

i also nid wear heels alr lar.
lol.hahaha kidding =

the long bus ride make my butt pain sia.
cos raining plus national day preview.
then keep Jam Jam & Jam.
lols.

i enjoyyed my days.

next time when i ask u to beat me.
must beat me kz. =))
cos i wanna smiles n play with u.
but my physical dun allow me to.
dun mean to be so quieeeeet and sianzzzzz de.
dui bu qi!! =x (hua hua pull ear)

2009-07-09T20:41:00.002+08:00

oh yeah!
tml is friday!!

but this time rnd..
no bball..
shopping ba..
cos no players..
lols.. =((

though i realli realli realli wanna play bball. =x

the whole of next wk will be working from home.
yeah =))
can slp later.
and see my mama longer.
whahahahhaha

2009-07-05T17:27:00.002+08:00

do i realli look so young?
i noe ppls say i look young all along.
but for this 1 wk.
it has been 3 cases whereby ppls tot tat im below 16 alr?
tat like kua zhang?

1st was during my hair cut last sun.
tat lady tot im 16 nia.
2nd was when me n jie went to snow city yest.
jie order 3 adults tix and 2 kids
and the lady was like asking.
which 3 are the adults?
and the lady was like kip on pointing at me askin me hw old??
lol.
she tot im children?
i dun mind buying children tix lar.
whahahahhaa
3rd was today.
went to bishan to servic phone.
then the CSO look at my ic and say.
"u dun look like u r 22"
i tot u r v young only.
lols.

lol..
nvm..
young is gd!!
mean im healthy??
lols.

reach hm and notice that jie was exactly at bishan also.
lols.
why didnt we meet?
and so qiao tat she din bring hp.
is it our yuan fen getting worst n worst??? =((
ok hope im thinking too much.
lols.

tml is mon agn.
and is youth day.
youth no sch.
so shiok.
while i nid to get back to work.
sighs.

5 more days.
b4 i can see u agn.
why my heart misses u so much when u started to get back to sch?
am i thinking too much agn?

2009-07-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

OMG i feel super duper fats now.
cos i had 3 meals of fast fd today??

Wake up damn early today.
at 7am.even earlier then when im going work sia.
then proceed to aml for KFC breakfast with jie.
the feel was better than the 1st i can say.
cos the 1st time i eat hor.
v de nt nice 1.
haha

then went hm to pick the 2 small 1 to the long waited Science Centre and Snow City.

we went to IMM for lunch 1st.
lols.
mac but objective gg there was to go daiso..
cos gonna get winter gloves.

and i tell u we all did had a great day man!
lots of fun.
and all except me was freezing inside the snow city.
(ok maybe my fats more, haha)
and looked at my mei face when she come down from the slide.
realli funny man.
like wanna cry alr.
can see tat she is realli too cold.

so we actually go in n out of the place a few times.
whahahaaha
no pics allow..=((
but there are ppls inside takning for us.
but but but!!
the pics are all far too exp tat why we din purchase it!!

haha then we proceed to sci centre.
walk walk see see.
and the 2 smal 1 treat as it it's play ground.
lol cos they dun understand anithing i think.
wad they can press they presss, wad they can play they play.
LOLs.

i'm impress with the cycle of the birth giving.
lol.
the 1st few wks is like..
erm erm..
smaller than a 5cents coin?
amazed isnt it.
hw a 5cents coin can turn into a pretty lady like me.
whahahahahahhaa.
lol ok i noe i BHB.
shall use cute then.
whahaaha

saw a little chick session.
a chicken ss too hatch out from a egg.
we wait wait so long only the leg come out nia.
til the sci centre close liao tat chick stil nt out!!
lols so we left alr lor cos closing liao mar.
lols.

headed back to IMM for dinner.
this time rnd..
LONG JOHN!
haha
now u noe why i feel so fat??
lols..

alright then walk walk ..
i spend alot agn.
kip buying for the 2 small 1.
guess i realli dote on them alot huh?
damn broke liao still kip buy lor.

haha then off we off to home swt hm.
hahaaha.
i'm hm early today.
ard 9pm.
whahhaa but we are all tired lar.

esp tat precious jie of mine.
see her in train wan slp alr.
whaahahaha.

soon. i will be slping soon.!!
nid ample rest! =))

work out work out and work out!
i wanna be work up nuts!!
and of cos result must be seen la.
diet must be control.
if nt hor.
realli no use lar.
whahaahaha.

JIAYOU!
look good & feel good!
that wad i wanna be =))

2009-07-01T17:33:00.000+08:00

i dunno why but i miss u.

2009-06-27T21:08:00.002+08:00

basketball session was great!!
bcos i have scored in countless balls.
lol damn on form yest.
haha nono shld say.
only when i reach 260.
haha cos at cc din realli play well.
maybe cos dunno my teammates?
lols dunno.
but anyway,
gd game =))

and today i shall say..
it a SPECIAL DAY!
cos it's my 1st time cooking at hm with jie.
i mean. we cook dinner for my family.
whahahahahahaha.
we cooked quite a few dishes.
lols.
overall i can say....
the gd is nice!!

but the potato realli abit salty
lol all thanks to me.
haha add more salt.
lols =p

nvm....
clap clap n well done SHaohua & Jasmine!!
gd job today!
*Pat Pat*

and of cos we made fruit juice also.
haha green apple juice.
haha but think my blender too small lar.
then kinda ma fan.
hehehhehehee

that hw the both of us spend the day today!
lols.

and tml..
to Van 21st bdae BBQ!
but guess i will only stay a while cos got work on Monday.
cant take leave.
too bad.

n n.....i so wanna club more n soon!!
haha but im broke.
anyone wanna sponors me?

so fast 2 more days and sch reopen alr.
lols mean less freedom for me?
cos gonna teach siblings hw.
and v v v v v v v soon.
my mei going to be P1. =x

hope the registeration and stuffs are nt ma fan.
lols.

i will definately be a gd mother next time (if im gonna get married)
cos im well trained!!
lols.

alright...
gonna stop here.
i type alot isn't it =o

hair cut tml =))
and tat finally.
i decided to go.
hehehehehee

gdniteeeeeee ppls.

2009-06-21T15:16:00.003+08:00

wear more gal gal?
i will try..
trying to change slowly.

but dunno if i cant.
cos like wad jie say..
tat's my style.
so i cant change much.
everyone got their own style.

im still so envy those smaller size ppls.
cos wadever they wear.
it will be nice.

while like me.
dun even dare to try clothes.
that why.
i am wad i am.
lols.

make myself smaller 1st then say ba.
lols.

2009-06-21T14:57:00.004+08:00

maggi mee for brunch again =)
it has been kind of long since i ate tat alr.
lols.
save money plus it's nice!
lol but i noe nt too much.
hehe

wanted to bring siblings for a swim today de.
and was tired and feel like resting more so dun intend to alr.
but they stil rem it lor.
haha.
shall i?
will see hw later.
hahahaha
only afraid that i wil be tired tml agn.
lols.

so fast..
1 more wk and sch gonna reopen alr.
mean i got less freetime agn?
and NO MORE email??
hahaha

jiayou!
jiayou!
no more comments from others pls.

2009-06-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

sat was FUN!
i dunno but i just feel so happy.
crapping and laughing!!
i like it this way!!

saw John @ Marina Square.
chat chat.
lols.

had dinner at Asia Noodle agn.
and look look at the menu.
decided to order the same things agn.
lols boring jasmine and shaohua.
lols.

and 1 so healthy the other 1 so unhealthy.
lol no wonder both look diff huh.
whahhaa.

walked walked ard and saw yong ming.
chat awhile jiu go le.
(why YM gt hug i dun have?)

headed hm.
was too tired.
damn nt enuff rest.
gonna rest well!!

S-H-A-O H-U-A is H.A.P.P.Y today!!!

2009-06-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

went bball as usual
dunno why this time rnd.
my legs like cant move sia.
and always wanna cramp.
damn.
i nid to move my legs.
cos i wanna sweat more.

mit up with van for her bdae celebration.
and and..
candy and Huishan were the surprise.
haha..
and great chat and fun during tat session.
but like wad van said.
the session was too short.

nvm. we will have a longer 1 next time kz?
shall meet up soon!

and and was being comment by the taxi uncle when me and jie went hm.
kaoz.
so heartbroken and yet i got to act like i dun feel anything?
DAMN!!
i hate all this comments!
it jus make me so heartbroken. =(

2009-06-15T18:43:00.001+08:00

i have alr destroyed myself.
how can i be back the past old me?

broken endless promises.
tat's me.

when can i wake up?

2009-06-14T20:23:00.002+08:00

hope im thinking to much.
hope my feel is wrong.
hope things wun change as it is.
hope you to be by my side forever.
i need u.i wan u.i treasure you.i cherish you.

i wanna be happy everyday.
i wanna smiles everyday.
i wan to have a wonderful and colourful life.

damn broke.
gonna control every dollar spend.
damn!!

i enjoed my last thur, fri and sat alot!! =)
ilu.

2009-06-08T18:45:00.005+08:00

why do ppls grow old so fast?
how much i hope we can stay at 19-20 yr old forever.
so that we wun get old.
so that we can be with the same ppls always.
and nv part.

im realli afraid for that day to come.
the day that we are seperated.
the day that we are gonna mit lesser.
the day when u belong to someone else.

will i seriously be in ur heart forever?
will u neglect me when u belong to someone else?
seriously dunno wad i will be and wad will happen to me when tat day come.
but..
that's life.

how i hope i am a boy.
or rather a man.
so that i can make u mine.

alot of memories jus came back when i look at those old photos.

2009-06-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

wo hai bu zhi dao yao zhe meh qu mian dui.

dui bu qi.

2009-06-01T20:42:00.002+08:00

omg!
im so red nw.
cos yest went wild wild wet den sunburn!!
lols.

but of cos i have alot of fun!!
so wasted nv bring camera!!
lols.
nvm.

will have chance agn.
lols.

u made me change my mind.
lols.

looking forwards to this sunday. =))
u realli dun wanna go?

2009-05-26T20:00:00.002+08:00

i wanna go club more!
more more more!!
best is to go every week!
so that i can drnk more also!!

Gals, we shld try out butterfactory soon kz.
cos i heard that it's cool and fun!!

and dun forget our date on 11 June to PLAY.
1st time together!
Cheers

Swimming tml =p

i love the one that treat me so precious!!
love u till the end man.
-wo de sheng ming zhong bu nen mei you ni-
nv ending love and route for us.
Cheers.

take care of urself alright.
dun fall sick =)
a hug to cure all ur headach k? =p

2009-05-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

had a mini celebration at hm jus nw for my siblings.
lols to be exact.
jus a blowing candle session?
lols
dunno so poor them.
nvm.

hope the sciendce centre trip will make them happy and enjoyable.
and of cos intend bring them to eat Happy Meal!!
so that they will be happy!!!

jus wanna see them happy!
that wil make mi happy too i guess.

2009-05-25T21:26:00.001+08:00

2009-05-25T19:58:00.003+08:00

im jus a fool.
jus so silly.
it has been yrs.
but why am i still doing so?

i jus nid someone to whack me up to make me awake.

no more u.
out of my heart and mind.

i jus nid to enjoy myself and make my life worthwhile.

2009-05-24T20:47:00.003+08:00

i miss 3 years plus back de u.
the u that love me so much.
the u that i used to have.

i miss everything.
i jus miss u.
17.07.05

do u rem and miss the past like hw i do?
or have u forgotten everything?

i jus love the song below.
im addicted to it.

2009-05-24T20:41:00.001+08:00

想跟我吵架我没那麽无聊
不懂得道歉我没那麽聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
你又在哭泣我给不了安慰
我又在摇头有那麽点後悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
但身不由己出现在胸口两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

2009-05-24T20:20:00.000+08:00

im lazy to blog..
below are some pics from thai.. =))

2009-05-24T20:13:00.004+08:00

2009-05-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!
Going Bangkok on thursday with jie, lao gong and ah bun.
Im getting more and more excited alr.
Think tml will be even more excited lor.

Haha but hope is safe over there lar.
Cos now a lot of riots and all.
Lolls.
Please dun start the fight pls!!

WORLD PEACE!!

Haha it laogong and ah bun 1st time there wor.
Lolls. So bet they are more excited then me.
Hehe.

Shopping shopping shopping!!
Enjoy to the fullest!! =)

Hopefully I can spend enuffs =)

2009-05-10T21:10:00.002+08:00

was feeling bored that why come online agn.
haha.

wanting to be pretty, hao kan, cool and slim down is always in my mind.
lols.
so many times in wanting to change myself.
to being nt so boy, attitude and seems to be rough.
haha.

but im always scared to take the 1st step.
esp to change hw i wear.
always been wanting to look more gal gal also.
but just dun dare to try.

i guess some of the reasons are:
1. i dun have the shape/size to wear gal gal clothes, cos gal clothes usually more tight fit?
2. v v little ppls seen mi in gal gal before?
3. i scared i will be a laughing stocks when ppls see mi in gal gal wear. (n i'll definetely b affected =/)
4. ppls cannot accept it? (haha)

so what i should start to do now are:
1. workout more to make myself slim down so that i can fit into those gal clothes?
2. try to change my attitude?
3. have longer hair? (but definetely nt tied up kind)
4. MIA ?!?!? (cos then, when i change no one will laugh at me ma...whahaa ok i noe it's silly)
5. cut down fast food cos that realli fatterning (though i say alot times liao, and ppls.i din say i wanna cut down coke wor)

haha
hope i can realli change one day then.
r u guys looking forwards to the day too?
but i guess, wad i wanna be must depends on myself.
and not be too affected by others yen guang (though im those super sensitive 1)

haha lol shall see.
all i can say is..
be urself =)

i'm always missing u.
and telling myself that i cant depend on u too long.
because 1 day we will part.
one day u will be attached.
one day u will start ur own family.
im always telling myself to let u go and look 4 ur happiness.
but whenever i think of it.
i wil start to emo.
i guess because i realli scared to lose u.
scared without u by my side.
though i noe we will be in each other hearts.
but without ur presense.
im still feeling so empty.
u r always the one i cried for.
the one that i easily teared for.
be it minor or major things.
be it myself or jus quarrel.
u r the one that i will feel so blessed n xingfu when u hugged me.
n make mi smiles with ur silly n foolish action.
though im always treating u bad.
but i love u so much so.
i told myself to treat u better.
i will.one day u wil see the change me.
i noe u noe this.
but still wanna say.
i love u.
u r impt to me.
u r dearly to me.
dun ever leave my side.
even in our many many next life.
i still wanna met u.

2009-05-10T13:52:00.002+08:00

haha it has been real long since i last updated.
lols.
been realli lazy to even on my laptop.
lols.

fri bball at sk agn.
and this time round.
im kiao by guys.
got blueblack on my right arm and neck there.
hit my bone lols and i was feeling damn pain cos they are realli rough.
lol.
but i guess.
that bball ba =/

then yest went town with jie and xy.
bought my mama a wallet and bag.
lols hope she like it.
aha.
and i wore my cheer u up shirts =))
nice nice lor.
so many ppls wearing the same shirts lor.
haha.

after then is steamboat at tian tian.
haha i have been there twice within a mth le lor.
haha.
but i enjoyed the session. =))

then proceed to suntec to get my necklace.
haha happy =))

after tat proceed hm le.
lols.
whenever we are enjoying, the time flies.

whenever we are at work.
the time so slow. =((

haha but nvm.
4 more days.
and im flying off =))
hope it safe there and i wanna enjoy my 5 days out to the fullest!!

feeling so excited =)
and hope with the amt i bring.
i can spend enuff wor.
hehe.

2009-04-26T12:12:00.002+08:00

it sunday and i woke up at 1030 today.
lols.
that realli early for a sun lar.
ya.

so send a mail n update my blog.
lols.

and going rest soon.

sun shld rest well.
yehs.

was kind of affected after reading the letter.
think which part and abt wad u shld noe.
i dunno.
just feel that...........
hais nvm.
i dun wanna be the selfish 1.
take care.
misses n loves.

2009-04-26T12:04:00.002+08:00

yest dinner with my poly friends was great.
we had steamboat at Tian Tian.
we were offer a 1o% discount and will given the VIP sit upstair.
had lots of photos and fun.
they realli can eat alot le.
i lose out man.
lols. as usual lar.

then saw meimei there.
lol.
i think is her friend saw me then tell her de.
haha

we stayed there for i think almost 2 hrs.
then after which.
we proceed to Marina square to mit yiru.
wow i tell u.
with her around.
we realli can gossip man.
cos she noe alot of things that we dunno.
so we jus kip asking her and then she answer and share lor.

think inside the MAC hor, we are the loudest alr lar.
kip laughing lar.
haha.
then tok tok.
so fast jiu 11pm le.
then we proceed hm lor.

reach hm at 1145.bath then slp.
oh ya.
i got a tee from Su yee and Chen Ming for my 21st bdae.
yes..21st.
they bought since Aug till nw then pass it to me.
lol is a Mickey from Disney land.
damn cool and cute.
i Love it alot man. =))

thanks ppls.

hao xiang ni.

2009-04-26T11:59:00.004+08:00

2009-04-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

today don't seems like a fri to me.
because normally fri.
i will be v excited and looking forwards.
but like i say.
this wk im so nt looking forwards. =((

went for a jog with Commserv ppls after work.
lols cos i had no activities on despite trying to hard to look for activities since mon.
LOLS.

let me tell you.
the run was terrible.
i dunno.
but im feeling so lousy after it.

cos i cant even complete running 1 rnd and i started walking?
and instead of 3, i run only 2 rnds. =((((

to other ppls.
they think that since im a sport person.
i can run better.
but no.
i guess i really disgrace myself as a sport person.
was feeling realli lousy.

thinking that hw many time i promise myself things but yet i din do it?
i din manage to be wad i want.
and im always wanting to go back to my past cos i think at tat time im fitter?
and of cos better.

i guess is the determination & motivation that i have lack ba.

after which some of us proceed to the opp for bball.
had 2 games.
and the 1st match was terrible.
no matter hw i shoot.
the ball just dun go in.
and im feeling so tired. =((

act few mths ago.
im alr thinking that im at tat standard since dunno when.
no improvement at all.
i wanna improve but i always see no improve.
hais.
lousy me.

alright la.
i guess i shall not complain anymore.
because ACTION speaks LOUDER than words.
dunno wil i make it.
but but.
i will try harder.
i hope i do.

DAY 2.
been missing u.
i wan my days with u.
sms, email to you.
and i hope god send those words to u.
im missing u so dearly.
can u sense it?
are u missing me the way i am missing u?

been lousy today.
reali lousy.
i guess i realli miss u too much.
cos i feel like tearing agn. =((
im waiting for the letter to decrease day by day.
because then.
it mean u r coming back. =)

appreciate it, cos it seems like u r toking to me when im reading it.
at least for that moment i smiles.

6 more days to go.

2009-04-19T18:12:00.002+08:00

wanna upload pics of my precious jie bdae .
but but...
think i deleted the wrong file.
so jiu heck care le.
dun wan post le.
jus jus type it ba.
yehs.

1st of all.
still wanna wish my precious jie "Happy 23rd Birthday!!"
lols.
seriously hope u did enjoyed yest wor.
yehs.

i had a great day out.
yehs.

haha

and seriously.
im realli sad tat u r going off.
but nvm.
i wil be ok.

i love it everytime we part with a hug.
endless hugs forever.

dye my hair.
and nw nw nw.
i look like a lion.
damn gold.
scared go office kanna scold le.
haha but nvm la.
dye jiu dye le.
yehs.

can we mit agn b4 u leave?
imu.
8 days is too long for me.

2009-04-11T12:32:00.001+08:00

Woke up early to mit jie for sakura @ downtown.
*thanks for the treat

But seriously think cannot bring me to buffet.
Cos I cannot eat 1.
Bo hua.
I dun fancy abt food.
Lols.
I dunno hw to enjoy food.
Haha.

Waited for 2 mths for a PH.
And yest was meant to enjoy.
Enjoy my bball whole day.
But turned out.
Yeah enjoy….
“enjoy walking ard”..
“Enjoy cos of the stupid rain that make mi waste almost half a day”.

And make mi damn bloody no mood.
Sighs.

Reach SK @ only 5pm.
No ppls.
Was boring.
when finally there came a few ppls tat time.
It rains.

I wanted to continue playing in the rain.
But jie refused to let me.
See..she is always so strict.
But noe wei le wo hao.

Turned kind of high and crazy when rain stop.
Fools ard with the ball.
Trying to make myself tired only.
Ended up twist my ankle.
Though it is painful.
But lucky nt serious.

There here come the Prata man.
He join us to shoot ball.
After tat as usual.
Play match.

Wow tell u guys.
I really hate him to the core.
Becos….
He trying to act as if he is really good.
When he is rubbish to me.
And wad worst is..
I found out that he damn happy and always giving tat stupid evil smiles when he make mi angry.
Isn’t him bian tai?

Then trying to seduce my precious jie?
Lols.
Come to me before u consider to do anything.
Wow mentioning of him really make mi so sick.

Cant n wun forget that when henry apologise to him for being rough.
He replied “ nvm la, if u all nv play rough. Hw to win??”
Wow kaoz.
I wanted to say…
I use my shooting can make u lose alr lor.
He so useless.
Think he v pro.
Then only dare to play with her.
Dun even dare to play with all those guys.
So hum ji..

Ok shall stop talking abt him.
Cos it wun be endless.

But but but…..
I told and promise myself something.
And that is….
I wanna win him with my skill..
I wanna improve more and give him die.
Win him every match.
Tat my aim.

Prate man: Ni deng zhe qiao. * evil smiles*

Wanna shoot ball later but again.
Tat jie of mine refuse to let me play.
Sighs.
I really need to train up u noe.
For myself..
I wanna be fit back ya..
And nt fats..

Hope I will enjoy my day.

Update agn.
Maybe tml if im nt lazy.
Haha.

James: long enuff for u to read ant.
Buay steady la..nv come play with me liao.

HuaiXiaoHai: I saw someone that look like u.
That make mi think of u.

2009-04-05T13:30:00.000+08:00

as usual.
bball on fri at SK.
im so so tired.
run a lill wanna die liao.
my cough make me cant breathe man.
seriously.
at tat pt of time.
my breath like wanna stop anytime man.

so ended my session early and then went off for dinner.

yest was fun.
meet up with henry cos wanna celebrate his bdae for him.
then we bluff him that we are going to the duck duck tour.
haha ended up going KBox.
had lots of fun singing.

then went dinner at Shudoku agn.
it his 1st time there.
hha.
hope he like it.
then we parted at city hall mrt.

then as usual.
nv fail to take bus with the precious 1.
cos i wanna spend more time with her.
but always ended reach hm v late.
haha.

that all for my days.

looking forwards to next wk cos fri is a PH. =))

im so so fan and troubled.
wad shld i do?

2009-04-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

2009-04-05T13:08:00.002+08:00

i'm so so lazy to update my blog
have been whole the whole day for tues and wed.
cos im on 2 days MC.
was feeling terrible man.
wanted to update but lazy to even on my com
so din update.

till nw.
im still haven recover.
=((

2009-03-28T13:49:00.000+08:00

Woohoo.
My blog getting more and more rusty liao.
Almost update once a wk only.
Haha.

Oh wad shall I say abt yest bball.
Tot was a boring day.
Cos no ppls playing ball.

SKCC is empty u know.
Kaoz.
Then those guys decided to go 299.
So we followed them there.
Damn far lor.
Almost walk for half hr?
Haha.

Our 1st match started at erm…8pm?
Lols.
Then those guys at 299 playing full court.
So I sian diao cos I too long nv play full court.

Then we played full court with them.
Haha quite fun.
And ended with 4 on 4.
Though it a short 2 hrs game.
But im happy =))

Happy that things turned out better in the end.
At least I get to sweat.lols.

More bball sessions pls. =))

Damn tiring wk.
I nid more rest.

2009-03-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

I dun dare to think of the future.

Of how we will become.

2009-03-22T17:34:00.002+08:00

went to skcc for bball for bball.
it was the most looking forward day of the week.
but turned out.
it was a bad day.

played only 5 matches that day??
was damn unhappy and bu shuang.
so decided to leave tat court at 9pm.

sighs.
nvm dun tok abt it.

sat woke up early as we want to proceed hm to celebrate mum bdae.
even asked candy along.
but then.
turned out bad also?
cos mum dun wan celebrate and it make mi so heartbroken.

so decided to leave hm early cos i dun wanna be more sad.
proceed for lunch at sunplaza.
then off to sentosa.

it was fun,
i love it.

reach hm at 3+ am then off to slp.

i dunno why but i felt more and more lonely and empty?
perhards cos always no one at hm?
i dunno..

still waiting for things to turned well.

i hope im nt thinking too much.
which i always do.
im now so nt looking forwards to my thai trip alr.
wil i enjoy if i go???

2009-03-15T18:00:00.000+08:00

went hm after work on sat.

cos i wanna pei my mama

so mit jie at sembawang to makan.

we had cavana.

then went hm.

slack as usual.

then jie and mei watched tv.

while i go had a nap.

cos was realli tired.

sorry wor, im realli tired.

make u self entertain agn.

then proceed to suntec for IT show.

wow the ppls there ah..

damn alow la.

so squeezy.

then me and jie faster get our stuffs le jio left le.

bought my long wanted tampura at shilin.

haha so nice lor.

then ah bun went to mit us there.

we went marina square walk walk then proceed for dinne at shoduku agn

becos i wanna eat the rosti.

hahahaha.

then as usual.

proceed hm and bye bye.

gdnite ppls.

lols.

2009-03-15T17:41:00.003+08:00

2009-03-15T17:21:00.002+08:00

after 2 wk of not playing bball.
last fri finally went to play agn.
and this time rnd.
with new ppls down there.
asked min and her friends down.
and we played..
i was happy..
that they came down.

sorry to hurt u wor.
dun mean it.

hope u will feel better.

2009-03-11T20:09:00.002+08:00

Sighs.
Suddenly I find my life so so bored lor..
Work den go hm…
Work den go hm…
It has been a routine.
Life seems so dull and meaningless to me.

I wanna add COLOURS to my life.
I wanna enjoy more.
I wanna do things that I like.
I wanna be happy.

Told one of my colleague that I REALLY feel like going for hip hop classes.
But I can’t afford it for the time being and also afraid that I cant commit the time.

And not to left out…..

I DUN HAVE SELF CONFIDENCE LAR !!

I will think so sooo much..

I wanna go clubbing, singing, bball, slacking like nobody business.
But I can’t. =((

Got hp but no one wil msg u.
Lols.
Life to me now is reallli………………..
NO COMMENT !!

Wanna jio ppls out but also got to worry abt things in the house.
So chose to go hm.
Then at hm, I wil find myself so sian, then always will complain complain complain.
Lols.

Tat my life.

Suppose to go swimming today but end up nv.
Cos all cant make it.

U see,
Im going hm again.
Lols.

Ok nvm.
Know u all going to tell me..
“learn to relax urself at hm”

Oh ya, anyway.
Says all that doesn’t mean that I dun love my home kz.
I love my home and of cos my family members.

to be continued.....

didn't went swimming so do some skipping at hm..
and whenever i looked into the mirror.
i find myself so er xin.
i dunno why i wil become til like tat.
from the one that alot ppls used to admire to now the one that ppls always commended on.

my mum friend didn't say wrongly.
he said "actually im quite pretty wad, why eat til so fat?"
though that sentence realli pissed mi off.
but come to think of it.
he is jus stating the fact wad.

cfm that there are alot that agreed with wad he say.
jus that they nv say out and this uncle is kind of straight nia.

im realli very disappointed in myself.

SHAOHUA, wad are you doing??
why did u make urself turned to be like that????
ARGH!!!
NO MORE excusesfor you not to exercise.
be it tired or wad.
u must at least do some exercises for a day.
ur only rest day is Saturday and Sunday!!
other than that no more rest!!!!!!
other then i got something on or fall sick.

BETTER START TO BUCK UP!!

2009-03-08T18:09:00.002+08:00

oh ya wanna say.
after 2 wks plus of break..

i shall resume my training stating tml =))
Jiayou.
ways to go!!

2009-03-08T17:25:00.002+08:00

slack til 2pm at jie hse on sat.
lols.
went to town.
bought my earring, sports bra and etc....
jie bought herself a shoe.
yehs..

i walked til my leg damn suan lor.
yehs.but i did enjoy myself though.
went to "just Acia" for dinner agn.
damn shiok and full.
and i got my aixin ice cream from jie.

thanks alot for walking so many time. =)
i love the hug whenever we are parting.
noe being my jie is tough, but thanks for everything.

oh ya, thanks for the blue black. =)

fri was bbq at pasir ris.
with liyana,diana,eileen and jie.
our food seems pathetic lar.
so little.
but at least it fills our stomach.

played some games.
punishment were food and crakcers.
lols.
yehs.
had fun laughing.

drank a can of beer.
suddenly have the craving to drink.
then proceed hm after tat.
we went hm earlier then wad i expected.

wanna take more pics de.
but some ppls dun wan take with me =(

2009-03-08T17:17:00.002+08:00

2009-03-04T19:08:00.003+08:00

alr so fan cos of so many things le.
then i came hm.
saw the letter from CPF.
saying that i DEC - Feb bank not enuff money
so they nv deduct.
but...
i dun think they nv deduct lor!!!
and they are going to deduct str $200.
sighs.

act tml going gym.
then suddenly.
i wanna come home.
to pei my mama.
wanna pei her more.
so end up i cancel my gym session.

but but.
i dunno if i come hm.
she wil go out ant.
nvm ba...
see how.

jus now when im on my way hm.
my whole mind is u.
i dunno..
it's all abt u.
i guess in my this life, next life and many many life..
i cant live without u.
trust me.
ilu too much.
dun ever leave my side.

2009-03-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

Dunno wan to say I’m suay or wad.
Walked pass Nancy desk and got cut by a file.
And it’s bleeding.
Lols.

Nothing to comment on my “suayness” recently.

Intention to go baibai this Sunday.
Wanna take away all the bad lucks and unhappiness.

And good things start coming in.
For me and my family to be happy.

But it also means…
I got to wake up super early!!!!
Like erm…
715am? Or latest 730??

But nvm nvm.
Wei le my family. And I can slp when I reach home in the afternoon also.
Hopefully I wun be lazy and tired and change my mind though =x

teach my bro his hw till i wanna xplode le.
and i notice that his studies flunk alot.
haix..
i dunno wad to do.
im super stress.
too stress cos of too many things.

can someone save me out of this pls???

Do u noe that I misses u a lot?

Awaiting for Friday.
And pray hard that the time will stop there.

Sometime I wil jus wonder…
Do you really miss me when im nt ard?

2009-03-01T16:59:00.002+08:00

weekend always passes so early
=((

fri was nt a gd day.
haiz.. dun wanna mention abt it le.

yest was so tiring lor.
woke up at 630am for breakfast then to work.
then after go to pasir ris with jie.
headed to Changi Air Base.

after that to John 21st.
haha he look so cute and better looking nw.
haha.
played cards games there.
lols.
the most fun de is the Memory game.
haha.

and then headed home at 1045 like tat.
cos scared no train.
haha.

i need more rest man.
v tired recently.

praying hard that things will be fine.

awaiting for fri to come.
i wanna enjoy

2009-02-22T16:20:00.001+08:00

great day out yest.

wanted to go Spore Flyer agn but din manage to.
cos of some reason.
so went to Suntec.
had jie long wanted have the waffles.
at the "Cottage Place"
it was kind of a romantic place huh.
haha.

also also we got this Gold menbership card from tis hotdog place.
so we went to eat.
quite nice.
i quite love it =))

Singing @ K box later.
but i cry though.
cos of tat jie of mine la.
keep make mi laugh then i sing til half, i cry lor.
haha.
stupid her.
every stupid action of her make mi feel like crying.
dunno why.

we sang from 2 - 7pm.
then went to have dinner at "Just Noodle"
the food is cheap and nice.
and we ate super alot.
great deal man.
lols.

after that headed home. =))

life being tougher.
but i wil jiayou and wun let it collaspe.

2009-02-22T16:17:00.001+08:00

2009-02-17T20:58:00.002+08:00

abcdefg....
act finsihed typing my entry alr..
then my bro accidently step on the wire.
then the power go off. =((

was saying i was reading my blog entry for yr 2005 & 2006.
then realised alot things i seems to forget le.
i also used to be more CHEERFUL & HAPPY.
haha.
nvm HUA HUA will be the CHEERFUL & HAPPY gal agn =))

i'm addicted to the bk "FOLLOW UR HEART" given by van as a bdae present.
lol it taught me alot of meaninful things.
and written alot things that are realli true.
haha.
it make me wanna be a BETTER person =))
SMilesssss.

had 1000 skipping today.
damn tired.
dun think that's alot wor.
cos as per advise by ah bun.
i need skip at least 45 mins.
but i only skip for 30 mins.
haha

think i wil need at least 6 mths to 1 yr to at least have a slight improvement on my body sia.
nvm lol.
i BELIEVE putting in efforts will have result de. =))
be POSITIVE =))

swimming tml.
Jiayou. =p

Precious jie , jiayou for ur studies aso wor.
huggie.
HUA HUA smilessss wide wide =D

2009-02-15T17:24:00.005+08:00

before i left jie hse for work.
she passed me a bag.
inside was some heart shape hand made cookie for me and my mama (pic below)
then got something for my siblings too.
and also some snack for me to eat during work.

went for lunch and movie at AMK hub.
the "LOVE MATTERS"
nt that nice.
i preferred the wedding game.
cos it's more funny.

oh ya.
got this star things from jie during lunch.
10 stars inside angbao.
2 with "oops, pls try again"
and i got to choose 3.
and below are the 3 that i got.

super suay lo.
got only 2 "try again" and i got 1.
kaoz..
but nvm.
cos im contended with another 2.

Diana, someone gonna go swimming with us alr =))
yeah.
like so.... finally.
though she gonna see me in swit suit aso.
haha

off to raffles city to check out the crumpler laptop holder.
wow heng...that day nv buy...
cos the laptop cannot fix.
if nt she realli gonna use it as a file le.
in the end got her a gal gal bag.
seeing her so happy and smiles make mi realli happy.
=))
wo xi yuen kan dao ni zhe meh kai xin.

then i got my another part of present.
another angbao.
inside a paper wrote: redeem 2 topman basic tees
so there we go 2 topman for the basic tees that i always wanted.
n finally i got a size M tees after so long.
but my stomach realli big la.
need to jian fei la.
flat then nice =)

then saw Miss bun at topman. (ok we are meeting her act but so qiao c her inside)
then walk walk, have dinner at shudoku.
wanted to go chiong but nv.
then proceed hm.

got my last part present on the bus.
a angbao and card.
this time the ang bao inside realli is money lar.
lols.

then bye bye to each other.

Thanks for ur day and efforts precious jie.
nth can express the love i have 4 u.
Many many thanks. =D

will this be the last?

2009-02-15T17:20:00.002+08:00

2009-02-15T17:14:00.002+08:00

finally wore my new bball shoe on friday (pic below)
super chio right.
haha but was nt feeling gd with it at 1st.
cos kip coming out.
but after that ok le.

lose to prata man agn.
dun understand why.
sitted at a corner and think.
but jus dun get the ans.
and cant denied that im damn bu shu qi tat i lose to him.
ya only his grp.

was thinking why the more i play.
my standard is always jus there and nv improve at all?

nvm i wil jiayou and make sure that i beat his grp down 1 day.

after that dinner as usual.
then proceed to jie hse.

waited after 12am then slp cos wanted to pass her something for Valentine.
and she laughed at it and keep correcting my mistake.
Argh!!! thanks ah.

got a hug and off to slp.

2009-02-15T17:12:00.001+08:00

2009-02-10T19:27:00.002+08:00

suddenly..
i wanna so much more of the new urban male sleeveless.

haha.

2009-02-08T22:14:00.001+08:00

ok that 2 pics of "Yi Shi Jie"
i think the white guys very cute! =x

2009-02-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

2009-02-08T21:57:00.004+08:00

this 3 days has been a HAPPY day for me.
haha..
seems so long since i say that i'm happy le right.
lols =)

fri went to sk for bball with my beloveed dajies - candy and jasmine and huishan for bball.
lols.
and we took some pics cos i damn lonf nv take pics with candy alr.
lols.
still rem that she is the one tat make mi wad i am today.
lols.
we had so much fun playing bball.
and of cos turned up my COMMSERV colleague.
James,Desmond, Kevin anf Anthony.
James jumo damn high lor..haha.
nt a bad player.
though 1 or 2 of them are nt realli gd at it.
but we has so much fun playing with them.
with all the funny actions from them.
lols =x

then the 4 pretties gals (pics below) proceed to AMK S11 for dinner.
then candy send me and jie hm. =))
she is always so nice =))

the 2nd day(sat) bai nian at jie hse.
lols.
i purposly go buy 2 oranges ok.
cos i dun have,
haha
see im always so nice.
hahahahhahahha
then of cos gt my ang bao (happi happi)
then jie and me went to AMK Hub for movie.

watched the wedding game.
quite fun though.
haha.
then we decided to go Diana hse for gamble.
lols cos this new year i haven gamble yet.

then reach TPY central saw "Yi Shi Jie" performing. (ok will upload their pics)
so heng of us.
and stupid us bought so many masks agn.
lols. (broke liao stil like tat)

then proceed to grandma hse to use toilet (ok, noe we are bad)
haha then there we go...
to the "CASINO"
lols...
had alot fun.
learn new games.
pizza for dinner.
but lose money though,
haha nvm la..
kai xin jiu hao right??
=))

then to my sweet sweet hm..

today haha.
went out with mama.
can see the pics below.
the 2 pretty "gals".
do we look alike? (why my mama look younger then me?)
haha and i love my dressing today.
cos i think very "cool" plus "Shuai" plus "Pretty"?
haha and i dun look so fat though..
xcept my face (nvm i will continue to jiayou)

and u all also can see my mama, her jie jie and her mama.
lols.3 of them also dun lok alike hor.
my mama still the "MOST CHIO" de la.
haha.
maybe last time ma grandma also so chio 1.
we dunno only.
haha alright crapps....

went hm for a nap at 3+..
and now im going to slp again !!!

gdnite ppls.
hope i wil have more of this happy post ah =)

i still haven write my resolution.
i still haven got my topman tees.
i wanna be like last time like tat.
cos liyana was saying i look so much slimer last time =(

2009-02-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

2009-02-08T21:53:00.001+08:00

2009-02-03T20:44:00.002+08:00

another day at hm.
haha force myself to skip agn.
and i dun denied that i wanna gif up at my 360 times.
cos i realli skip til i wan die le.
and almost cramp lor. =((

but wei le to look better.
i must jiayou and nv gif up =))))

haha i guess i will have another expenses every mth.
lols..
which is my small bro soccer training fees?
he came to me with the letter asking to go to the training every sat.
got coach to teach them de.
lols.
register fees = 70 bucks.
then every mth training fees = 45 bucks.
lols.
though the 45 bucks dun seems alot.
but 1 session = 11 bucks le.

and while teaching him and sis work jus nw.
was thinking.
i shld save money for their future tuition also sia.
lolx.
why am i like the mum ah??

haha nvm.
jus save whenever i can lo..
dun gif myself too much stress.
haha.
if nt i wil always be sad???

whahhaha.
wow..
shaohua xiang tong le =))

tml is Jason Ferris Birthday !! =))
dinner at hotel hotel.=))
and he say he wanna me to perform for him.
omg.
better dun kanna sabo tml =/

im still thinking abt the topman tees.
=x

2009-02-02T20:55:00.001+08:00

was so tired after 100 times of skipping.
but force myself to skip til 700.
lols.
lucky if nt i wil be guilty for nt exercising.
haha

jus nw im thinking.
i realli shld nt think so much for others.
i shld think for myself.
lols.
if nt i will always be the poor me.

haha.
awating for wed and fri to come. =)

2009-02-01T16:44:00.002+08:00

ok shall do some posting 1st before i go and do my stuffs.
haha.

let me start with friday.
went sk to play bball.
alot of ex CG ppls came down sia.
so of cos we had great fun.
and i was so pia that day.
til i nw whole body aching la.
esp tat left leg of mine =(

had a gd tok with candy.
yehs.
then after bun send me and jie chomp chomp for dinner.
then after that she send us to jie hse.
yehs.tat end of our friday.

yest went to work in the morning.
then proceed to boss hse to bai nian.
we have great fd over there.
though i jus eat a bit of each.
that make me realli full alr.

then after that kelvin was going off to amk so i lobang his car to amk to mit jie.
then we went to my hse cos i forget to take something and os cos that cow sis if mine can bai nian.
lols.

and we played blackjack.
shittssss.
i lose to her 1 stick of fishballs.
hahahahhahahahaha.
lols haven buy for her.
wil buy her next time. =)

then went to hosp.
then proceed to cityhall area cos we wanna go chun dao he pang.
and it's so crazy for that cow jie to buy so many masks.
that make mi buy too.
haha.

we took alot pics.
but i got nth to upload cos all inside jie camera.
so only can wait til she upload le.
and i make 2 wishes there.
*hope it can come true ba*

oh ya..
i haven write my resolution =(((
Feb alr le.
alamak..

of cos then we proceed hm. =))
i'm happy to spend my day with u.
im happy happy =))
i wanna be happy always =)

i wanna buy the topman tees.
cos it v nice.

awaiting for wed to come.

2009-01-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

Act to be hard outside.
But actually crying inside.

Speechless.

2009-01-27T19:00:00.003+08:00

below are the pics taken on CNY eve and 1st day of CNY.
yehs.

nothing much.
lols.

wanna go out today.
but was so tired and sick.
so intend to stay hm.

so fast and it's work tml agn.
and need to wait til april then got PH liao.
sianz.

i wan faster friday.
so that i can see u.

more bball sessions soon. =)

2009-01-27T18:57:00.001+08:00